[A- and I had stood talking] Terrible this morning – she would never leave home again on the same terms – it seemed as if everything was all mine etc. She had not meant to say anything till our return, but it had come out now – I never consulted her etc. She told me at Moscow bringing Domna would not answer, but I never attended – she owned, however, that she had pointed out nothing better. I said this morning, as often always before, if she would but say what she wished, it should be done if possible – regretted my inability to manage better etc, as usual. It is really terrible. Little difficulties would be nothing if I had an affectionate, reasonable person at my elbow. How will it end? We always make it up again, but it wearies me – I am tired of this thraldom.