Talking this evening about my affairs – I must be helped or run away somewhere where I could live on three hundred a year. What would it take to settle my affairs? I answered about a thousand pounds – A- cried and I almost. At last talked her into better heart. It seemed she would not leave me abroad – would bring me back – would go away for four months. I estimated our travelling expenses at three guineas a day if luding, living and at an average five posts a day – said five hundred for four months – talked of Moscow.