Poor A- in tears again. She cannot understand and can neither learn herself nor, in fact, let me learn – the idea of her and my learning anything together is too absurd. Oh, that I could be a little more to myself – both of us would gain by it. It is terrible – I cannot be let stir without her. I have not a moment to call really my own nor can I buy a book or a chiffon without her. This cannot last.
Princess really cordial to me tonight – asked me to write something in her album. Gently observed that Mrs V- was of another society – disagreeable to make those acquaintances but she did it to please her mother – the old lady pleased with my admiration of Princess R[adzivill].
The emperor lent him sometime back, on mortgage, seven hundred thousand roubles.