25 April 1839

When I went for our wills, A- mentioned signing over her estate to me – Mr Grey to consider about it. What follows was said in the evening. Mr Grey is of [the] opinion that A- cannot sign over to me – it would be a voluntary act and might be revoked – set aside – and if I bought the property, she would have the money to dispose of. Mrs Sutherland’s giving all to her husband a different thing – the law considered value received from a husband! In short, Mr Grey said the thing, he thought, could not be done by A- to me. My impression is that he does not wish it to be done or does not wish to do it. I fancy he doubts me a little in this matter.

A-‘s constitution scrofulous.

24 April 1839

Mr F- would, I saw, have shaken hands but I did not show any sign of it – talked to Miss F who sat next me.

She as if not knowing how I should receive – saluted – kissed her as formerly and all was right.

23 April 1839

Abbott not a gentleman – mentioned his having called here. She did not explain how the thing was off – I concluded, let it die a natural death. She showed neither pain nor pleasure on the subject, but said it was all off.

Poor A- had thought me long but behaved very well about it – she got to bed soon after my getting upstairs.

21 April 1839

In bed, pot and all. A- does not like it nor ever liked him so little – he had certainly his quantum sufficit of medical practice – humbug – wrote down symptoms. He asked me if there was any scrofulous taint in the family – no – I think he seems into the case of her nervous lowness. Shall I get worn out with it?

19 April 1839

A thorough washing after cousin – changing my boots etc. A- seemed better for her confiding in Mr Jubb the pith of her Cliff Hill aunt botherations and the hurry of getting off rouses and does her good. I have enough to do and think of.

18 April 1839

Then till nine and a half preparing linen for cousin and sewing up one stocking for ditto. A- would be bad as ever but as I told her, I would make no more inquiries and take the least possible notice.

Stood talking – said I would ask her to trust but was decidedly of [the] opinion she had better do it – she says she will, and we are to go to York on Saturday for the purpose of seeing Mr Watson. The occasion she is afraid of being taken from out of my care.

17 April 1839

A- low as ever – what will it end in? She begins to doubt about settling all on me – said today she felt as if the blood of her brother would cry out against her – she ought to take up her cross – she was a fornicator. Poor thing, what will all this end in?

A- set so wrong by the sermon on Sunday I told [her] she must not go to church.