Awake at five and from then to getting up, lay thinking of Miss W-; at nine incurred the cross – I really am getting much more in love than I expected to be again – in fact, she likes [me], it is evident, and I think we shall be very happy together.
Just gently named to Marian, when alone with her, that I
really wished she would never again set at me as she did last night – and she
began roaring again, saying we did not suit, and she would go away etc. This
always annoys me, and at last I am inclined to make it a rule never to mention
Marian in any way to anyone.
to Marian] On her leaving me nothing, tho’ my uncle’s wishes about the Shibden
estate were not my fault and I had done nothing to lessen my claim on what came
by my father and mother. Marian said I had said I would not be named with the Inmans
– what could she do, if she left the one part and me the other. I said I thought
that would be odd enough – I, her sister, and those children only cousins once
removed. Well, she would marry and hope to have child and that would settle all
– begged she would not marry for that – she might do as she liked, I should not
say much. From all that she said, I expected nothing from her, and we would both
be alike, both do the same (hinting at my leaving her nothing). She said I ought
not to have taken my uncle’s property on such conditions – ought not to have
asked what he wished about it. I said I would rather have it on the conditions
than not at all. My father does not like my walk etc, he thinks with her I
shall not have income to keep these things up – I shall find it out, she said,
by and by. She expects to be the richest and that I shall be obliged to sell.
She told Mr Robinson she could not under six hundred a year and expect to have
it – she plainly expects Miss Mary Mosey’s property and merely a legacy from
Miss Buggon. Had she sold Weighton she never would have had these chances.
These talks always annoy me – let me name these subjects to her no more.
On one thing or other – her Market Weighton connections
never found her so gentle or little obstinate on the subject.
‘Meantime a thousand thanks for all your good wishes and
kindness to me in times past and a happy meeting to us all, somewhere hereafter
– affectionately yours, V[ere] Hobart’. Well, and there is an end to me of V-
Hobart. Mrs Carleton inquired after me.
She gives her a watch and chain that she is to order for
herself at Geneva.
I forgot to let A- copy
Lady Gordon but she copied Marian and I have the altered letters that I wrote
first to the Stuarts.
Poor Marian thought she must call on Mr Abbott. I explained
and she made up her mind not to go to Halifax at all and seemed to attend to my
reasons for her not noticing Mr Abbott at all if she should happen to see him.
Poor Marian, how little fit she is to stand alone.
Seven thousand four hundred debt on Skelfler – all on
mortgage – expect one thousand on bond and two, owing to Mr Robinson’s
Wrote her copy of what she
ought to write to Marian and of what she ought to write to Mr Washington with Bentley
Stone lease to be copied by him for the two Hemingways.
Abbott not a gentleman – mentioned his having called here.
She did not explain how the thing was off – I concluded, let it die a natural
death. She showed neither pain nor pleasure on the subject, but said it was all
Poor A- had thought me long but behaved very well about it –
she got to bed soon after my getting upstairs.
Marian in no good humour at first but my calmness and temper got her right and I believe she likes and respects me more than she does anybody else. Said I could not remove my mother’s bones to Halifax – my father having the right over these and Marian being his sole executrix.
[Talking to Marian] about Mr Abbott – thought if I wanted influence in the town, I had better not ice him. If I did the contrary from policy, it was bad [to] disclaim all thought of policy, she insinuated that I might get much for the family from Mr A-. Very gently but decidedly snouted this idea – said I acted from a deep feeling of disappointment, never thought of interest. Poor Marian.
About Mrs Inman who it seems is now quite insane again and Sarah was miserable the last holiday sat home, but Mr Inman cannot live long and then all may be right – told Marian she had best console Sarah as well as she could and let things quietly take their course.